What's New

What's new? Nothing really. The job is going good. I am already doing a few things. I'm not counciling anyone yet. Since we are FDA regulated, we have training even for that. But mostly I'm back to sitting and reading at work, only this time they encourage a little web surfing so that I don't get fried out. Office work rocks. I get to take mini breaks like every hour. All for health reasons, don't want me to get any eye, leg, or back problems from all the excessive sitting :)

Anyway, they change me back to hourly (with the same pay), only now since I am hourly I get night differential and overtime pay again, till they get it figured out. How sweet is that. Now I can do my stint here then work overtime in the lab to help get them caught up. Which, by the way, I will be getting a lot of over time in the lab soon. BOY do we have some major problems coming up.

It was lab week this, which means lots of mini games to do at work with a 2 hour luncheon with a raffle. I didn't win anything...yet. There is still one game left that will be determined soon...and it is the big prize. Becky won something though. And lunch was from garden cafe....ooo swanky.

Decent week I guess. Their is a party that I kinda want to go to but probably can't cause it is a crossdressing party. And I don't know any women my size, and I am not in a position to go and buy womens clothes either. Maybe a moomoo (spelling?). Or a her's robe.

Black Day

Okay, so I'm a week off. I couldn't celebrate Balck Day last week so I'm doing it this week. In case any of you don't read my blog, like everyday, Black Day is a day that only people who were single on Valentines Day can celebrate. On April 14th, single people get together and basically have a traditional dish, which I love to death. I had it just about everyday over summer break. Anyway good stuff.

So, belated, but Happy Black Day.

Rung #2

So I start my new job tomorrow. It's only for 4 hours and then I go back to the lab for the rest of my shift. I'll be on this schedule for about a month. I'm a little nervous, being a councilor and all. Got to dress up for the part to...not my style, but got to play the part I guess. I get my own desk area, computer, get to bring a radio and stuff to decorate my place. I got an office gig basically, it feels like a lot of responsibility. Like this is who I will be for a while. I don't know, probably just pre-jitters and all that. That and I still don't know exactly what I'm doing. But I have been promised to eased into it...course, I've been promised many things by many businesses. I could always go back to the lab...I just might...sometime in the future...of my own choosing and after I pay my debt off, I hope. Anyway, I feels like a whole new world is opening up tomorrow, ... ... ... and I don't feel ready.

Blood/Paper

I got the job, my pay will raised about 50% and will be salary, and I will be working a 50/50 shift. I will spend half the day in Donor Suitability and the other half in Component Lab for awhile...til Component lab can live without me. I will be payed the new pay throughout though. When this will happen I haven't heard yet and if the time I come in will change, I still don't know. But I got the job.

Meanwhile: The last ten Stargate SG1 episodes will start this Friday....sweet.

And Grindhouse was a mile a minute funnertainment. That's right,... funnertainment. Anyway, it rocked, I recommend it. So what if it is 3 hours 19 minutes long....Lord of the Rings was that long and you sat through that...

Salary

Just had interview in the Donor Suitability department. I thought it went well, but I don't think I'll get it. Why? I don't know, I just have a sense about this stuff. I made them laugh, made them relaxed, I think they got a good judge for my character; but I also, don't meet all the requirements...then again, how many new hires meet every requirement...still don't think I'll get it.

::Edit::
So I got called into my supervisor's office about 2 hours after this post; she asked me what could they do to make me stay, she tells me they called up saying "We want him, how soon can you let him go?" She told them she would get back to them. So I said, the only reason I'm going is because of the money; which is why I do what I do at this place anyway, yeah sure, it does look good that I will finally have lab experience and counseling experience, but dude....the money is my main goal at this moment. I think I got the job, I haven't heard anything from them yet but I think I got the job.
::::

Anyway, Bec and J are on a cruise this week. She called to complain 2 hours after she got on the boat...hehe. I told her that there is a time table on a cruise, and you have to adhere to it, not it to you. Oh well, she is having fun anyway.

HAHAHAHA

I come into work today and first thing I hear is "You're Trainer has been fired!"

She was the only trainer on staff....HAHAHAHAHAHAHA....I'm so screwed here....at least they still pay me :P

Sick

I'm sick, sick as a dog and I'm still at work. I must really like it here since I plan to work my hours tonight. I've been to work since Saturday...and I still have 2 more days to go; plus, I agreed to take Becky and Jason to the airport at 5am. What is wrong with me?

Axis of Evil

So a few things.

I just bought 3 of the 8 films to die for that just came out on DVD today; Unrest, Gravedancers, and Penny Dreadful. In my opinion these are the best of the bunch. All well done (for what they are) and decent areas of film critiquing. Unrest - uses real dead people, that added effect makes it even twice as creepy. Penny Dreadful - to be honest this film was my favorite, great acting by our lead, good story, good scare factor; but as i said before, the villain (when you actually see and hear him) is very disappointing. And Gravedancers - okay, not the best I've ever seen. Sort feels like it belongs on a channel that is a cross of the WE network and Bravo. But, entertaining. What it lacks in style and grace it makes up for in...okay, maybe it doesn't do that either. But it is entertaining, sort of reminiscent of the old scary films.

And....(drum roll please)
...
...
...
I am trained...on a few things :/
Actually I've been trained for like a week and a half; but since I can no longer be pulled from training, something else had to go wrong. Over the past week: both of our blast freezers went down, one centrifuge went down, and our freezer and our fridge are both in alarm (meaning we can't go in them). We can barely triage, and spin blood, but since our fridge is in alarm (in only one corner) we had to move everything to the other side of the fridge which in turn leaves no room to put anything that comes into our building. So we have product building up in our coolers, product we can't filter cause there is no room to place anything, product we have to continue to process so we use dry ice, and product that is already a day old and can't be spun cause where are we gonna put it. So I can now do all these things but can't cause we don't know what else we can do with our limited abilities.

But I did get my hair cut. I feel good about that.

Idiot Box

I have finally watched all (or nearly all) of every previous season of Stargate SG1. So, I can stop recording the episodes....when I changed the program to just new episodes (which start again in April) you should have seen how much the DVR sighed.

Anyway, TV programing is disappearing for me...

Rome - Series Finale last night...ok, they summed up everything...a bit corny
Battlestar Galactica - Season Finale last night...BEST EPISODE EVER...won't start again til 2008 :(
Lost - still going strong...probably 8 episodes left til season ends
Grey's Anatomy - I really am not liking this show anymore...once season ends, I think I'm done
Heroes - won't start again til late April
Stargate SG1 - last 10 episodes ever starting this April
Stargate Atlantis - starts again when SG1 starts
Enterprise - actually pretty good, SCI FI is showing 4 episodes every Monday...hopefully it is almost finished...getting tired of staying up late on Monday night to get them all in
Family Guy - last night was really weak
Naruto - I got drawn in who knows how long it will go
My name is Earl - don't know what happen to it or when new shows will occur
The Office - same as Earl
Deadwood - have no idea when this is coming back
Daily Show - four fun filled night every week
Colbert Report - starting to get a little old but same as Daily Show

These are our recordings and pretty soon many will disappear. Guess I'll be able to read again :)

Luck of the Irish

So St. Pat's was pretty good. We started at Brazen Head for a breakfast (missed it, got lunch instead). Ran into Becky's supervisor there; chatted him up for a bit. Then off to Barleycorn. Good music, decent sandwiches, met up with a few people. Had a very long talk with Miss Ann, of all people, about my moving and my anxiety about it. Then off to Applebee's for a real lunch, the house for a sec to drop off the urine, then Dubliner. Stayed there for a while, met up with Aussie, good music. Then we went to Zio's and O'Conner's was our last stop....that place sucked. I admit, I was one of those who encouraged the no smoking ban, well, O'Conner's was one of those places that fell through the loop hole about that. Smoke everywhere, and God forbid we leave before our beers were done....anyway, all in all a good day and I made it the whole way without a hangover the next day....cool, cool.
...
...
...
...
...
...
Oh,...
...
...
...
and...
...
...
...
I'm not moving...
Bye :)

Moving Day

Okay, so I finally started moving in. Already a few snags. Still no door/wall for my room, there is still stuff being stored in my new room, and it is taking a really long time to move my stuff.

The latter is really my fault. I am noticing how unbelievably difficult it is to leave. I guess it is because I have rarely ever left anybody in my life....people have always left me behind, whether physically or emotionally. This time I am leaving....for no good reason other than it is the logical choice for me and her. I don't want to leave this place....to leave her behind....but she is the only thing holding me here. If I would stay, it would be so that I could be near her, which is why I know I should leave. We are not a couple, and rarely ever did I ever want that from her (earlier years). I'm really leaving my comfort zone.

Sure I left when I was going to Korea, but I was coming back (sooner than I thought, but still coming back). Now this is for good; who knows how long she will remain here. She always talks about going to SF, Cali.

At least I'm doing it, it unhealthy to linger, I need this move as much as they do.

But, since it is taking a long time, it will be a while before I am fully moved. I have a lot of excuses, I work all night and stay up til 4-5am. I can't pack during that time cause he is sleeping, I wake up maybe 2 hours before work and then do the whole thing over again. Or, I'm doing this all alone. No one is helping me pack, no one is helping me move. She wanted to shampoo my couch before I take it, and since it has to be the first piece of furniture to move I can't move the furniture.

And lastly, no one has giving me any encouragement or hindered me in anyway. No one has told me how good or bad of thing this is, if I'm making a huge mistake or the smartest choice the world has ever seen.

Frankly, these are my own internal demons. I have to do this this way. I don't want help, I don't want to here what kind of a decision I am making. I don't want any arguing or encouragement. Because, I have made decision. This is really frelling hard for me to do...., which tells me that this is the right thing to do. The wrong choice for me is usually the easiest choice, which in this case is stay. But every night I don't want to move, I mull it over in my head, "this wrong, why are you doing this if you don't want to?" And every morning I wake up I think, "I really start packing and this move started or I am never gonna a leave....and that is a bad thing." Anyway, I'm gonna try to do one more drop off today, and then get to bed early.

MY FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR IS TOMORROW!!!!!!!!:):):):):):)

HAPPY ST. PATS.....DRINK UP ME HEARTIES!!!!!!!

Free at last....

Ladies and Gentlemen, boys and girls; this last Friday, I came to a realization....I have been WoW free for a year. Yes, that's true. I have not played World of Warcraft (or Warcrack) in over a year. I deserve a token or something...like AA members get. Although it wasn't a huge deal to quit, I truly hated the game...well, the drama it brought with it anyways. I didn't miss that crap for a second....;however, I miss the game. I was a great game....if they ever make some sort of single player version of it, or make like a small team play where you have your own personal server sort of thing....I might go back. But, unfortunately my character is so high in level that I need to party to get anywhere I haven't been yet....oh well. Anyway, I guess I traded Warcrack for another game. This Rappelz Epic III. Only I can solo this, and no ganking, no drama (at least none that I have to deal with). It's a simple game that I play a little on the weekends while the rest of the week I stay logged on to get stamina. I sounds a little confusing and don't worry. I realize you don't care anyway. But it like a healthy return to MMORPG's. I play for a few hours, and don't bother with it for like a week.

I am moving. I finally was able to take a few days off of work this week to actually move all the stuff I boxed up. St. Pats will be a nice break from moving. In case anybody is wondering, I will be at the Brazen Head around 9am for breakfast, Barleycorn around 11:30am and I will end up at the Dubliner for music and drinking.

300

This... was frelling awesome.

I was so jazzed about this movie and it exceeded my expectations. I am in such a happy place right now. Very few times does a film scream at me to see it, and even less out those times does the film make me feel better than the anticpation of seeing it.

Also, it has been barbarians week all this week on the history channel. And I have been diggin' that as well. Really helped spice up the mood.

I ain't gonna spoil any of it but I will tell you that David Wenham (the man who played Faramir in Lord of the Rings) was fanfrellingtastic as the story teller. Of course, the words came from Frank Miller (who is quickly become my favorite writer) but I don't think anybody else could have said them better.

My Chemical Emo

The concert was cool....for what is was. A band that finally got to be the headliner of a show, not a huge budget.....oooo look, pyrotechnics. Music was good for the most part. Helena was a little ruin for me. I like always like the CD better than the live shows, but I don't regret this one. The crowd was jazzed the band rocked out. All and all it was good (I've seen better though). LOTS of emo/death kids. No surprise. What sucked was the end, and it wasn't the band. The band finished with Helena, than said their thank yous and goodbyes. The house lights went up and, as Chuckles put it, the crowd scattered like roaches....no one but myself and Nater cheered for and encore....lame crowd. Anyway, a good time was had by all.

Though I noticed a weird feeling yesterday....I've been at work a lot the past week. Took Monday off cause I was sick; was going to call in for Tuesday also but Becky told the lab was 5 days behind, so I went in for 12 and half hours. Wednesday I stayed for 12 and half hours. I braved Thursday's blizzard and was at work for 15 hours. Then Friday was all overtime. Yesterday, I got a weird feeling that I should be at work....like I feel bad for not going in on my day off.

Well, the feeling has past now.

Doom and Gloom and the events that proceed.

Okay, so due to Red Cross calling a snow day, a few things happen. One, we only got 16 units of blood in...total. Two, Everyone who came to work got free pizza lunch and a extra Vacation day. Everyone else did not get a demerit for not showing up.

So yes, I have pizza again for dinner....cool. Still doesn't change the fact of me being angry at them. My anger has lessen to a grudge though. More or less I'm not angry anymore. I'm....hurt. And in a non-forgiving mood. Truthfully, I'm actually not much of a forgiving person. I more or less just move on. Friends stay friends, they hurt me again and again and I don't forgive them of this but I just accept that people will always do what people have always done...., which is be people. Human beings hurt one another, through complete fault of their own. But the universe doesn't care, life doesn't care. It keeps going, with or without you, it doesn't care. All you got to do is accept it and move on. I haven't forgiven a lot in my life. Mainly because this pain and sorrow in my life has combined with everything else I have experienced to make me, me. Why should I forgive? I'm happy with myself and who I have become.

Forgiveness is to say that I no longer hurt for what you have done to me. Sure, forgiveness is a grand thing to receive but does that help? Well, it helps you feel better about yourself, but did you learn from it....that is too undetermined. They may have learned from it for that moment, but in my experience, people forget a shit ton. If you forgive them (especially right away), they say thanks and skip away. But next year will they remember that they hurt you, will they remember not to do it again?

Part of me says yes but no. The realistic optimist. I understand that if they took that forgiveness to heart, their subconscious will remind them in subtle ways to never do such again. And there in lies why I don't forgive. What if they didn't take it to heart? What if your pain doesn't mean to much to them because they can't know what it is truly like? It is an unnecessary reinforcement for bad behavior. Now, I can't stop someone from finding reinforcement from somewhere else. Ya know, like they did something wrong, they know they did something wrong and they can't get forgiveness from the wronged party; so they run to the nearest loved one or clergyman for forgiveness. Basically it is like finding a new dealer when your old one jacked up the price cause he has to make bills this month. A quick fix.

You could call what I do "tough love," but I wouldn't. That phrase makes it sound that I do it for the benefit of the other. I don't. I do it for me. You want forgiveness, you earn it. I have to want to give it to you. I have to want to release this pain. But then again you may wonder why I don't want to get rid of the pain. Well, like I said before; all my experiences are what make me, me. I have a lot of pain in my life, pain is part of my life. If pain is too ugly of a word for you, use struggle. Its pain to me though. My life energy feeds on pain, just like it feeds on joy. I take negative energy (negative in the way of "dark", not polar negative) and use it for fuel, just like anything else. And how I can use it without wincing....well, there was a lot of pain for a good while. I couldn't get rid of it. So I learned to use. Just like any living thing....I adapt.

Whoo, this got really deep (that's what she said). Okay, now that you have read a "little" into my soul. What now.....?

Oooo, I know. Upcoming monthly fun.

Since I work everyday (for now). My weekends are my only enjoyment.

March 3rd: Sure, movie night is going on, I would love to go, but I'm going to My Chemical Romance concert.

March 9th: I get paid AND...... ...... ..... ..... 300 comes out. I will definitely go, probably multiple times.

March 17th: DUH, okay for St. Pat's there are 2 places I like to go. Brazen Head for the food (Reuben with no kraut and Baked French Onion Soup); and Dubliner for drinkin' and music. I love shouting Irish songs while shnockered.

March 22nd: took the day off for Evanescence

as for the final week in March....I got nutin'

A winter advisory is in effect...

Yeah, it snowing. So fucking what. I still made it to work at 9:30 this morning. Why so early? A few reasons: 1. Mandatory Overtime of 6 hours before Friday at midnight; 2. I really wanted to get out of the fucking house.

In case you haven't noticed, I'm really fucking pissed off.

Work today has been a Godsend. I'm a trainee, and I was the only one to come to work today of those that work in the Componet Lab. They called a dude in on his day off to come in at 6am today. He didn't mind cause he lives 2 blocks away. So it is just me and him. We are 4 days behind now, and we don't give a shit. I can't do anything except help him. And were having a great time.

Nah, what I'm fucking pissed about is Becky. Apparently there was a party at my house last night (of which I was not informed of). Of course she'll say I was, NO, what I was informed of was that Miss Ann would come by with a few friends and hang out BEFORE going out on the town. Becky ask my permission about this and I said fine. I had to work til 12:30am. Apparently they stayed at the house and partyed their. I don't mind that so much, really. What I am pissed about is food. I am on an extremely tight budget right now. Well, I had a series of good luck and scored some free pizza. 3 boxes worth. I had great plans to eat this pizza for dinner for the next 4-5 nights, maybe more. I was so exicted. I went to the store and got a small container of ranch dressing. I was gonna heat up a few slices and pour on the ranch. I get home, there is beer bottles all over the kitchen and bathroom.....and my EMPTY pizza boxes. This was my dinner for the next 5 days. I am now reduced to my original diet of oatmeal, noodles, grits; for breakfast, lunch, and dinner, repectfully. Now this tipped the fucking scale but really, how bad is it if someone eats your food? REALLY FUCKING BAD! Jason tried to make up for it by cooking me his organic pizza (which I like better) but it doesn't change the fact that I am out of a pleasent dinner, that is suppose to lighten my spirits when I come home from a 10 hour shift. What's worse is she probably doesn't even give a shit. Why would she? She doesn't understand what is like to bitch ass poor. She doesn't know what it is like to claw through life without the help of dear old ma and pa. I have been busted my ass ever since I got to Korea. The turmoil of keeping it together through everything has been really fucking hard. Especially ever since I got back. Becky has been cold to me. Well, ....more "whatever". You know, she isn't with me anymore, she isn't on my side about anything. She complains about work, I listen. Usually a witty remake but I listen. I complian about work, she basically has no shoulder to cry on for me. It just like "Welcome to the Red Cross, now cowboy the fuck up."

I mean seriously, how selfish and inconsiderate do you have to be to take a poor man's meal. I never could have thought she would ever do this to me. But then again, why am I surprised? I guess because it has been so long. I mean, I'm down on my hands and knees, picking up loose change, I have swallowed my pride. And I get some relief in a mere meal for a few nights. And she come along, snatchs out of hands, spits on me, then kicks dirt in my face,....then says "Thanks"

I don't think I would even accept an apology from her because she still wouldn't understand how bad she fucked up....

Check This...

Let's start with the loan stuff.

I got a co-signer. A lovely and caring woman who was willing to put her financial status on the line for me and mine....

The day I get the conformation from this wonderful wonderful woman....I find out that this particular credit card company "doesn't do settlements"....so my whole plan is now shot to hell and I am stuck making the month payments til it is cleared up. At least I have the money and am in the right mind to do so. It should take a little over 2 years maybe less if I work hard.

As for my mom, I let her know...that is about all I can do for her right now. I could still use the co-signer for a car loan and get full coverage but that would push back my getting out of debt quite a bit, and with the hella interest I am facing now, we both agreed to do it this way. She'll manage, I'll manage. Like mother like son.

Second on the agenda: moving...

So I'll begin moving in less than a week. I've already been packing. I can't believe I'm going through with this. No offense to Joe Joe, but Becky and I are....what?....a platonic couple, I guess. I this is probably the end, truly. She has even said she never come visit me. I could come see her. This would be easier if I had a cell phone. She call me to do stuff at least. And will see each other at work....probably plan to schedule lunches together....and then just never do. I don't know, it feels weird. On the one hand, I got a sweet little slice of the house all for me; space,...actually that is about it. Space. I'm trading this all up for space. God damn it, I'm so confused on how I feel about this. I mean I don't even think I'll have walls to separate me from the rest of the house. More like the illusion of walls, I think. I don't know. I asked Joe Joe to see these so called retractable walls. I really think this is gonna a be a deal breaker. And then I feel bad, cause he has gone to,....well not great lengths, but he has done some things to help me feel welcome. And it was all for me,...technically. I mean, now that it is done, he could really offer it to anyone. He is just so picky and everyone in his circle really want me to move in...somethings would be easier. A car. I would have a car and no longer share one with my mom and then have to sacrifice my weekends since I don't have a car. I need to talk to my therapist...if only I had time this week...

Which leads me to the last.

So I was able to finally document RBC's (red blood cells). Yes, I finally got a login....for 3 days. Then they ask me to come into the office and ask me to tell them how I do this process of creating, documenting, and storing RBC's. I so nervous. I thought I ruin like a whole days worth of RBC's. What turn out to happen is that since I have one foot in the paper work and the other in new high tech, integrated system, that is suppose to make everything easier, the fact that I can actually do the job that they finally allowed me to do was nowhere to be found in either system. So, ...I was productive for a whole 3 days. And man what a 3 days it was. On the last day we had near 600 units come in. An average is about 350 with a high volume day being about 520. So, 600 is huge. We never finish spinning and freezing the plasma on a 520 day,...never. On my last day of productivity. Not only did we finish spinning all 600 units, but we even finished freezing all 600 units. I was able to inspire the laziest person in the lab, by merely working my ass off, to be just as productive as I and my semi-trainer. We were all psych-ed and pumped. We were like, "now the morning crew has no reason to slack off on LR-ing (leukoreducing...filtering)." I get in the next morning...morning crew only did 100 units....that is bad...I talking way bad. Apparently we did so well, they thought they deserved a break....frelling morning shift. Then I find out I can't be productive anymore til they figure it out.

Ain't this some shit. So now I'm back to being lab-bitch. And in truth everyone I work with is just as pissed as me, cause the system is so frelled up that now someone who has been there for about 2 years also can't create RBC's. He can do everything else, just no creating....and guess who was partnered up with me tonight on spinning? Yup, so here are 2 guys, spinning blood, separating it, and then labeling it unprocessed cause we can't do shit with it. And now they have order me to do 6 hours of mandatory overtime before midnight on Friday....even though I can't do anything but be lab-bitch. And those tasks are done in like 2 hours max.

God damn, my life is slammin' ;)

Update-polluza

Okay, so still no login; which may be a little bit my fault seeing as how I was not a work 2 days last week. I took a few personal days. My great aunt died last week. Now I am the first to admit that I am a cold, heartless bastard. People die everyday. I care very little for the passing on of the populace in genral as well as family. I met this aunt, maybe twice in my life. However, upon rememberence of which relative it was I realized that a lot of happy memories surrounded this aunt. Them I started to accociate them with death and did not please me. Sort of like soiled underwear; ya know, when you just stand there and yell "Damn it." Well, I was not about to let some joyous childhood memories to become soiled underwear. So I took a few days off, got a lot done, then went to the funreal. Stay for the wake, upon which I did not socialize but did serve food. All in all, although a somewhat askew way to resolve the grieveing process, I came out with childhood intact. Teach her to try to soil my underwear.

Moving on. I plan to move out around the 1st of March. Money problems will be sort of resolved and sort of tight still. I came up with an ingenius plan, after being shot down for a car loan about 5 times. So I can't buy my car back unless I have a co-signer. Okay, done. Now I can't have a car loan until I get full coverage and now I can't have the 5K signature loan, which we plan to get as well, even with the co-signer. Well, here is the problem. With payments of 300 to one card, 25 to the second, 15 to the third, 200 in student loans, 250-300 in rent, getting full coverage on top of 185 for the car loan is a bit much. Well, I know what your asking. Why try for the loan in the first place. Well the 5g's was to bring down the 300 payment card + what ever was left from the car loan. Now none of that can happen. Well, here is what I came up with. This one card is pretty much holding me back. So, I go to the loan agent, with my co-signer, while there I get the card company on the phone in order to settle my account. As long as I settle for less than 5k. I'm good. Then I have my co-signer and myself sign for the signature loan, of which will be 125 per month (if at 5k). That deletes the bad card. I spend the next few paychecks lowering my 15 card (which will have an interest of 25% in June). Then all I have is Student loans at 200, rent at 300, loan at 125, and card at 25. That is less than one paycheck, of which I get 2 a month. So around mid-June (which is the deadline I have from my mom). I should be sitting pretty enough to try for the car. (By the way, these payments have been the bane of my exsistance for who knows how long. So getting month bills down to one paycheck is unfelling believeible to me).

And on lighter news. I have found a new WoW addiction. Rappelz Epic III. It is free and not to bad. Controls kinda suck but other than that it is pretty cool. Not equipment based, not party based. Just simple hack and slash quests. A blacksmith that upgrades armor instead of buying new stuff, skills depend upon killing stuff for points to upgrade them. Money is virtually non-exsistant. The only drawback (of which I do not partake in) is if you want the uber gear you have to pay the website to buy it. This how they make there money. tons of kids want this cool cape or mask, or whatever so slap down a couple 20's to get. But what is cool is that you don't need to nor are forced to. It pretty much for show. Lag is bad in the towns though. In case the gamer out there are curious the website is www.gpotato.com. It takes like 3 hours to download and another 1 hour for updates. But pretty cool. Also, I don't feel bad about leaving for like a month and coming back to it because it isn't a life. It is just something to do for a few hours (Of which I have plenty of on the weekends since I have no transportation).

That will do for now.

A positive with thorns

My Computer is up and running again. It was the power supply. Somehow, it shorted out. I blame the Hrdy sisters. I don't know how they did it, but I have speculations. Since none that can be proven, I can't charge them for it. Oh well, you won this round Hrdy sisters.

But you'll never guess what happen today. I final got offically signed off on a few things at work today. There was lots of cheering and congradulatory affection. Then they asked to go ahead and start creating RBC's.

"I can't."

"Why?"

"I don't have a login."

"WHAT? You mean you have been standing around for two weeks."

"Yup."

"Why?"

"Everyone I asked said they were looking into it or mentioned something about BiTS (new computer system at Red Cross) and how things take time cause it is brand new."

"I told Skip and Yolanta about that 2 weeks ago."

"I know, I was there."

"I can't believe this. We spent all that time trying to get you signed off and this we forget."

"Yup."

"Well, I guess all I can do is.....look into it."

"Yup."

"Sorry."

"Yup."

Not exactly for word but mostly. This is what I deal with, everyday. It no wonder I spend as much time as I can in the computer lab studing. Well, break's over.

So....

Are people...like, dead. Out of the people on my blog list (which needs to be updated), 2 still blog. Aw well,...I hope the services rocked the ....well, whatever.