You Are 78% Evil
You are very evil. And you're too evil to care. Those who love you probably also fear you. A lot.

Sunday, January 28, 2007

Advil Popper

Becky's old roommate, Carrie, and her husband, Justin, came back from Iraq yesterday while on leave.

We started drinking at 5:30pm. Apparently if you get a room at the Embassy Suites on a weekend, they have free drinks from 5:30 - 7:30. Then we took a cab from there to the Cresent Moon, old stomping ground for Carrie. We there for the remainer of the night. Well, apparently, the Cresent Moon now supports Karoke on Saturday nights....Not to go all ghetto on ya'll, but the roof was plenty tore up that night. A few other stop by and good times were had by all. They we took a cab back to the hotel where more beer was bought and one of the people we were hanging with had never seen porn....well that is just wrong. What good, fine, upstanding perverts would we be if we let her be on her merry porn-free way? It was so funny. She was like, "this isn't real" and "penises don't get that big," and "there is no way she can be enjoying that." Oh, we got fresh one here hehehe ;). Yeah, we open her tiny little, safe world up to a grandios pool of sin. It was awesome.

I love defiling virgin mentality like this. Sure, people can say how open minded they are but until you actually see something that isn't in your little bubble of happiness and actually come face to face with how you truly feel about it...you ain't got no idear.

anyway, good times, I can't speak now due to the singing. I can't sleep now due to the massive headache I get when I lay down, and for some reason my neck is in all kinds of pain. Probably from supporting my alcohol-logged head. Hadn't had fun like that in a long time. Is it sick of me to want to see the porn virgin again? Part of me thinks it is, and the part of me hopes it is :)

2007, ain't so bad from where I'm standing :)

Friday, January 26, 2007

I stood up today...

Now, I was perfectly content, as I usually am in my life, of just sitting by for the next 1-3 years earning those much need years of experience in lab to move on to better and brighter things.

I work in a lab that is poorly inefficient; it has been this way for a long, long time. Lately there has been a buzz of new procedures to be introduced to make it more efficient, but then I heard that they had been saying that for the past 3 years. Well, there was a meeting earlier this week and also today. I got to be a part of them since I will eventually be in the lab and actually working (another slam towards the inefficient-ness).

To tell the truth, I kinda got excited. By the time my training is done I will have to train on the new system they will implement to make things run better, but this point I have no problem with. They are truly serious about the change and that the change will happen within the next few months. Throughout all of my orientation and training, they talk about devotion to the company and how great we really are and stuff; ya' know blah, blah, blah. I swallowed on the surface to feign delight in working here and planned to keep that up for a few years. It isn't bad here just uhhh. But the minute I saw this plan, the laid out a floor model, and simulations and how they have implemented already in two other locations. I really got jazzed up about working here.

I can't go into detail, but it is way better then what they have now.

So, today's meeting was about getting trainers and how should do schedules. Just about everyone agreed to wait out the schedule change to feel it out. As for the trainers, almost everyone agree to get outside trainers to be trained on the system and then to train everyone else. Well, I'm new, and some of the people here voice there opinions quite openly; nothing wrong with that, it just that I didn't want to get shot down. So I waited til the meeting was over. I pulled the presenter to the side and flat out told them, "I want this training position."

I was so surprised at myself but I just kept going. Telling about useless I feel; how my talents are being wasted; how I have experience in educating others on a complex idea into a simple understanding; how it would beneficial since I haven't learned any bad habits yet, how I watch others do their jobs and see where they are going wrong and why so much stuff gets screwed up down the line, how I have prevented so much from continuing; how I am new and can come from a view with fresh eyes and a complete understanding of how they did do it (which is what I am being trained on now) to how they will do it, and being able to educate using both models to show improvements within the system.

And then, I ended on how I understand I won't get this since I am only seen as new to the whole thing but how that is better, and how I am unable to prove how good I am for this job.

I truly feel this in my bones, down to my core. I believe I have always felt the intuition on knowing what is right for me and what isn't. At this time, at this place, this is right for me...I feel this.


Plus, how cool would be to go from this newbie with no official lab experience who has only been here for 3 weeks to lead trainer of the lab in a matter of a month or 2.

I hope I get it. Otherwise, I'll continue to feign ignorance with the subtle hint extreme intellect, like I'll say, "Is this right?" with a innocent puppy dog look. While the others find the problem about a minute later and figure out what went wrong and give me props for 'asking questions when I felt something wasn't right, or seemed confused' when in truth, all I want to say is, "you accidentally screwed up this unit, you try this technique out and work to get into your routine to prevent this from happening in the future while I go over here and fix this unit so that we can still use it without wasting it and costing this company another grand for frelling something up."

Seriously, this job is just so easy, but if I do anything without being "properly trained" I can get into so serious trouble. So, I just try let the others fix their own problems by pointing out that "this doesn't look like the training video said it should."

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yeah, I hope I get it.

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Late promise to be fulfilled...

So, what is going on...I finished orientation last week and am in training now...probably for a few more weeks.

The money matter was sort of resolved at work, I was able to basically come into work a few hours later in order to obtain the differential during the training; bonus...

The training is very redundant, which is to expected from a highly regulated company that has to adhere to strict rules laid out by the FDA...but, it needs to be and at least I'm being paid.

Also, I may have...exaggerated about my problems inadvertently...you see I was kinda seeing red and I was still on the getting paid every week from my temp job so I forgot that I was suppose to double the pay for the pay checks...yeah...my bad...

Also, I got an email last week that my student loans are finalized to be consolidated and have to wait about a week or 2 for them to pay them off and then I start paying them...this a huge relief off my shoulders...a $400 a month expense to a $185 a month.

And since the money is a little more than I thought I may be able to move sooner...which I kinda want to do. But, may be delayed due to construction...

But to bring reference to the title of my post I doing something I promised myself to do when I was in Korea. To play the Suikoden series from beginning to end. Now I gave a pretty decent post to this during the Korean Chronicles but I would like to post this link for anybody (which is probably nobody) that is interested. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Suikoden I couldn't believe I found it on Wikipedia. Anyway, now many people know me as a big (not huge) Final Fantasy Fan; well, when it comes to the RPG's of all time there are only 3 that truly make the list.

1. Xenogears/Xenosaga
2. Suikoden
3. Final Fantasy

yeah, that's right....I did it. I put 2 RPG's before FF. Nothing can compare to FF's seniority in the RPG world but I have only encountered 2 RPG's stories that rival those of the famous FF series. In truth only Xengears holds the #1 spot and not Xenosaga, but Xenosaga is the prequel to Xenogears...they had to change the name for copyright laws. And FF addresses much about human nature but Suikoden holds the great stories. It is war.

"Each game centers around relative themes of politics, corruption, revolution, mystical orbs known as True Runes, and the "108 Stars of Destiny." Though the games follow an irregular chronological sequence, the entire series takes place within the same world among overlapping histories."

I really couldn't have put this better.

And Xenogears...well, that is just epic...

Anyway, I'm happy to be doing something I like again and can enjoy doing it as well (sometimes I really get sick of games...really sick of games).

Sunday, January 07, 2007

The Good, The Bad, and The OOgly

Let's start with the bad, shall we?

BAD:
My computer is fried...maybe. Power surge most likely...due to a Miss B. Lynn...not her intentional fault but it did happen because of her.

I got laid off from my temp job at the mail room. Apparently they didn't forecast well enough and just didn't need us anymore...

Which, leaves me with about 60 bucks to my name for about 7 weeks...will explain later in post.

I found out that my job won't pay me the amount they told me they would initially. I get paid a differential (which I was counting on), well I don't work the hours to get the differential during training; which, is about 2 months long...

I can't move until I get a cell phone because there is no house phone there.

My student loans may not be consolidated in time for me to pay another $400 instead of $185...

I can't get my loans until I have a full work schedule paycheck (which I thought was going to be with the differential...won't have enough to get the loan,...yet)

Which means, I am still "sharing" a car with my mom.

By the time I get my paycheck it will go to my bills, the next will go to what ever the first didn't cover and then rent. The next will go to rent and bills again but bills will be lower due to finally being consolidated (hopefully), the next will be rent...and so on until I receive the differential pay.

Looks like lots of ramen for me...again.

Fells like I am back in Korea...at least I have a bed this time :)

which, leads me to the good

GOOD:
I saw 1031 smashed out of his gourd during the New Year's party...

I start work tomorrow

I spoke with Red Cross about my problems, they said they will try to find training schedules for evenings...but haven't gotten back to me about that.

At least I have money coming in...

The move is postponed until things work out for me a little better. I was stressin'.

There isn't much snow this year...yet. Makes it easier to get around.

I finally got some relax time in...been runnin' full throttle for the past month.

And with everything bad out weighting the good I don't seem to stressed...its like life feels normal.

The job in the mail room really worked out my upper torso/shoulder area.

OOgly:
I should have asked that chic for her number...

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

Temporarily Out of Service

Okay, almost a month has gone by since last posting...well, what has happened since? Like I said, I got a job before the month was out. Stuffing envelopes. Truly not so bad. It isn't like a continual mindless task, I have to keep 60-70% of my full attention...no, really it does keep my attention and focus up. If I had ADD, it would be the perfect job since each letter is different form the last. So why have I not updated...well, since I make not a lot of money (nothing to small to ignore, but not something to write home about either), so I have been burnin' the midnight oil so to speak. I have been putting in 10-12 hour days, all the overtime I desire to have (if there is overtime to be had). So good money comin' in, bills being paid, one or 2 luxuries here and there. The biggest downer is still the car. My mother has now enforced the rule to call her every morning to find out if she wants to use the car after work, forcing me to cut into my overtime and ultimately forcing me to spend most evenings at home with very little to do. Although this situation is far from starving in Korea, it has its little problems; for example, maybe as many know, I enjoy the film going experience perhaps to much. Well, I am no longer able to achieve my normal stress reliever of going to the movies...this has vexed me greatly (btw, I recently was able to rent a few movies, feedin' my need, which has allowed me to calm a bit in order to write the present reading). Moving on.

I will be house sitting for a mister and misses Ox for the next week (starting tomorrow), I get to use one of the vehicles not in use currently for the time being, relieving before mentioned tension for a small time.

In other good news, since the mail room job is a temp position I will again be unemployed soon...NOT. I got the job at Red Cross, I start on the 8th, 1.60 upgrade in pay, 4 days a week, 10hr shifts, and I'll be in training for like the first 2 months. Although not the best job (from what I hear for numerous sources), it gets me in a lab position giving me lab hours.

I started to write something...I had a dream a few nights back that was very profound to me, so I decided to write in down and after doing so I desired to expand upon the idea/story...I thought it interesting. Of course, it is really just one more thing that I may never finish or merely become a "currently underdevelopment project" for the end of time...or my life, which ever comes first, much like my experiment, piano lessons, studying medical stuff.

And last, I will move...eventually. It keeps being pushed back due to the fact that I can't really work all overtime I want since someone won't let me barrow their car until I am moved in...

Oh, I kinda have lost weight (according to Becky)...mainly since I work a lot, all I eat is a cup-o-noodles on my lunch break...and a ton of free diet mountain dew...since it is the holiday season the company has free drink machines...

So there is the update, not much else, I don't have time to continue the gaming nights at the moment (though I believe that some have just given up on it all together). I seem to have broken out on stress acne all over my face...not a big deal really, but you know...just one of those things. My television has pretty much fell to just Daily Show, Colbert Report, and Adult Swim.

Anyway, things are going...how's everyone else?

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

hey

So, like I said, I would have a job before the month is out, well I couldn't have really cut it any closer. Turns out really that I didn't get any calls from places because no one wanted to set up appointments (for next week) before Thanksgiving weekend.

Anyway, I get a call for Red Cross. I go to the interview...the interviewer is not there. I have to reschedule for a couple hours later...no big deal, my days wasting away with nothing to do so...I go the interview later. And it was good, I gave all the right anwsers (sort of thing), I got the tour. Afterwards, she sets me down and says I would give you the job if I already hadn't givin' it away. Turns out she saw my resume, like it, but after she had already given away the positions. She then proceeds to tell me that she is "almost certain that a position will open up before the year is out." She can't give me the job now because there isn't one to give, but "I'll be hearing from her," ya.

Let me give a run down of my situation. Now yes, I can go out and get a job like right now. Any fastfood. But I have sworn to myself, no more food service. It isn't that is beneath me, it is just fuckin' food service. Yes, I might be able to go back to SCOLA, a sweet job in it is own right, but the pay ain't that great, they won't give me the hours, and it is an hour drive out there. (I have no permentant car). Oh, Becky took the car back, it is her right. I can't have the car promised to me because I have not moved in with said person (how can I move in without a car). Rent, and credit bills were due. I had to take money off my credit cards, put them into my account and pay the same credit bills and rent with the money I withdrew. I am tapped. I can live through December.

So what do I do, well yesterday I signed on with a temp agency and I have a job interview today for temp work maybe through Janurary. I'll probably get since they need people and it is seasonal work, it will suck, and they'll want me to start tomorrow most likely, but if Red Cross calls again, I can dump it for that. No biggie, it is temp work. No days off though. I'll get paid every week too. Ehh

***edit***
I got the job. They want me to start tomorrow, but now that I have a job I got a lot crap to get organized. Anyway, I asked if I could start Friday or Monday. Friday if they need me but Monday prefered. Well, in order to do that I agreed to orientation tomorrow morning. I also have an appointment with a loan agent and cleaning the place up. Both roommates are going to Cali tomorrow, so the place all to myself. Time to clean house. Then bright and early 8am-5pm (btw, all the overtime I want...as long as there is stuff to do for overtime). 9/hr. Temp-ing, hmm. I am working for giftcertificates.com. Basically just filling the orders and mailing them out. Data entry. I hope Red Cross calls...soon. This job won't be for long and the hours will only get longer the closer to the Holidays it gets...but man do I just want lab.

***edit part 2***
maybe I will start sooner. Friday maybe, or cancel the appointment and just do all day tomorrow. I just don't want to screw it up before I even get in there, and there really is so much to start getting in the works but have difficultly doing with 8-5 M-F when just about every place I need to consult with happens have just those hours... They seem so lax and laid back...a big promotional seller they try to get across is "jeans everyday". That would probably mean more to me if I done office work a lot. It is money sooner...I don't know. 3 months of nothing...struggling to get a job for that long sux...but it felt like a job in itself...one I didn't get paid doing...but still... ... ...anyway, for once, the things that usaully keep me back are things I cringe at doing: watching TV, playing games, writing D&D campaigns that don't come to fruition...I'm done

Sunday, November 19, 2006

Horror Film Festival night 3 of 3

Day last. This starting to feel more like an endurance test.

One more day to go man, you gonna quit or go for the gold.

I'M GONNA GO FOR THE GOLD, SIR.

...yeah, anyway, on with the show

Film 7 day 3

WICKED LITTLE THINGS --- rating: 1 raptor
The story is about a family moving to the ol' homestead of the dead husband's family. It is in the hills of Pennsylvania and use to be a mining community way back in the day. The owner of the mine operation used children to help in the mines (little holes, little people). They weren't treated well 'cept for a few. Well, during some blasting, all the children were buried in the mine, along with some miners. Years later, there is talk of zombie children in the hills. Well, turns out, there ARE zombie children in the hills (big shocker huh?). Not your typical zombies though. More like restless spirits that come out at night with real bodies. Of course can't die, they don't move like zombies. The move like a herd of children tromping through the woods at night, with mining tools, oughta move like...with determination. And their angry. They act sort like knowledgeable animals. And when they get something living they go loss on it. about 4-5 of them smash the hell out it with the tools and then they all hunker down and eat. Oh, did I mention they are eyeless. Anyway, that is pretty much the film. There are plenty of other stuff but it really doesn't matter when compare to this stuff. You'll see what I mean when I get to the ratings explanation.

This film I really wanted to see. The synopsis sounded good, the cover art was cool. And the damn thing fell flat on it is kidney stone. This film sucked my non-existent pancreas fumes. The acting was terrible, the camera felt it was being held by a man with Parkinson's, made me sick, which didn't help with the bad acting. I feel like Pavlov has done a number on me that now when ever I see bad acting, I'll get dizzy and nauseous. Not to mention, awful lines.

The reason I didn't give it the worst score is that I should slam the good of this film. There was one actor who was very good...the old creepy hermit in the hills. Played it to a "T". Second, location, location, location. They film in an actual forest that was once used for mining, with the original buildings. Very cool. And location topped with actually good film quality made the background even better. And to use tiredly worn phrase, Last but not Least, the zombie mining children. These were perfect. These were personification of the mindless, vengeful spirits of children buried in a mine, that we have all come to imagine and love. Such beautiful reckless anger. Let it be known. If you ever desire to portray the indifference that children can possess, use Bulgarian children. If anyone has seen Hostel, you understand. These children can look upon you with such incredible lack of care of anything, it will put a chill to your bone...evil incarnate I tell ya. Made all the more horrifying by the visual effects team by removing the eyes. Ever see an eyeless socket blink...yeah, you don't wanna. This quality is what brought the rating of this film up 3 notches. Otherwise it would be under the lowest rating.

Film 8 day 3

THE HAMILTONS --- rating: 2 raptor
Now this is an indie film. Low budget. Most of the film is filmed with a camcorder quality. This is about a family of 6 and a half. The parents die leaving 5 children behind. Most are in their early 20's (I think they are suppose to be very late teens...just older actors) but they are now the heads of the family with the young ones to take care of. This family has moved around a lot due to their problem...people go missing when they show up. And one of the young members wants to blow the lid on his family but is frighten to do so.

Anyway, since it is an indie film you have to look at it from a artistic perspective. If not, then the film sucked. Low grade film, bad acting, stupid story, and not a very good script. But as an indie film. It was alright. Could win a few awards. I don't know if I should say it though. As with most indie films, it revolves around one concept/idea/secret that isn't revealed until the end of the film. I just feel bad about saying it so I won't. But I can say this. The older brother is one of those types who ignores the bad stuff that goes on and keeps a smile on his face and acts like everyone is joking. Meanwhile he is a closet homosexual that pics up transients that are never seen again. The next oldest are twins, boy and girl. They both have problem. The male has a really bad temper and is unable to control his urges for very long. The same goes for the female but has a more subtle way about it. Not to mention the incestuous relationship they have with each other. The younger one is what you would consider the normal one. He finds it all disgusting and is frighten of his family but they are only people he has in his life and is frighten to tell anyone. The youngest we never see until the end. He is locked up in a box in the cellar, acts very much like a caged animal, on a diet of meat only, would. Kinda of a touching horror flick about family. Which is want the film intended to be about.

A decent film to end on for a horror film festival. Kinda wraps up all those gut retching feelings into a nice, soft, blood soaked pillow case, you use to bandage up festering wounds...ahh...you know warm and fuzzy :P

Film 9 day 3

SNOOP DOGG'S HOOD OF HORRORS
Okay, the festival had a few extra films. Like bonus films. This one is just garden variety film you can find a blockbuster. So...I didn't see it. Basically Snoop Dogg wants to be the cryptkeeper. He tells 3 tales of horror in the hood. A decently star studded cast of African American actors. Good special effects.
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...I decided to go see Casino Royal 007 instead...good flick :)


Film 10 day 5 (sneak preview)

THE TRIPPERS
This film I unfortunately won't get to see. It isn't playing in any of the theaters near here. Basically a group of hippies in a horror flick. And who doesn't want to see some dead hippies, huh, huh? Am I right or am I right?

Anyway, the review sounds pretty bad but it is star studded. Jamie King (Sin City), Thomas Jane (The Punisher), Lukas Haas (Alpha Dog), Jason Mewes (Clerks), Balthazar Getty (Feast), Paul Reubens (Pee-Wee’s Big Adventure, Buffy the Vampire Slayer) and Brad Hunt (2005 Screamfest winner for best actor in Cookers) with cameos from David Arquette (Scream), Courtney Cox (Scream) and more.

That is it for the film festival. I had a really great time. Re-charged the batteries sort of thing.

Tah Tah

Saturday, November 18, 2006

Horror Film Festival night 2 of 3

A good night of horror films. I am beginning to think that the reasons these films were not released is because they were good. Anyway, aside from a few content issues I can not understand why these films are banned. They really are good and should see the light of day but no, apparently for reasons that I can not surmise.

Film 4 day 2

THE GRAVEDANCERS --- ratings: 3 raptors
Possibly content is the ban for this one. Dancing on graves and all. It goes that friend dies in a car accident. His 3 friends see each other again after parting ways. They get it in their heads that they should go to the graveyard to give a proper send off. While there, they find a note on the grave. The note contains a nice poem about rejoicing in life because you never know when the minute is. It even promotes to dance upon the place of rest for the dead (turns out to be an actual pagan gravedancing ritual...incomplete). So after drinking they dance. Then they have 3 spirits haunting them. They find a paranormal investigator and find out that the rhyme was incomplete and comes with a warning that if you dance upon the graves you will be haunted for the next month by the spirit. Each night the spirit gets stronger and tries to reach its ultimate goal in making you join with them in rest. Well, after some investigating they find out that they dance in a part of the graveyard reserved for the unwanted. An area set aside for murders, mental unstable, homeless, etc. So now we have our typical evil spirits: the pyro child, the jilted lover, and Sadomasochistic torturer. Now, this has the making of a cheesy horror film, well, you be wrong. With a good cast, excellent lighting, good direction and pretty good script, and lots of really good poltergeist action sequences. I have to take away points for some really shitty FX. I'm talking about really bad split screen and CGI superimposed upon it.

Film 5 day 2

THE ABANDONED --- ratings: 1 raptor
A an American film made in Russia. The story is about a 42 year-old woman trying to find out more about her parents. She is Russian born but grew up in England and got a job in America. She was abandoned as a baby. Due to...well, Russia, they only just now were able to dig up something about her birth mother. She learns she has inherited a farm in Russia and she goes to investigate. The farm in basically an island, or more so a spot of land surrounded by a river. Upon arrival she runs into a man claiming to be her twin brother who also just received the news about the farm. During their inspection they run into their doppelgangers. According to the brother, these doppelgangers represent their future selves and how they will meet their end on this island.

An interesting story with a unrealized plot development (until the very end) which kinda makes you think and cringe at the thought. Also the film is very morbidly poetic, good lighting and acting. But it lacks something, it reminds me of reading a novel that you just picked up cause you were interested in the cover. Not overall incredible but good, the kinda book that would go unnoticed by the public and the world won't miss it. It was a good film and good story, but the feeling I got was that it could have been better. And maybe that is part of its charm, it could of been a lot better, but it wasn't. It is what it is, and that is what it always be. Coincides with Russian culture I guess.

Film 6 day 2

PENNY DREADFUL --- ratings: 3 raptors
And what a film to end the day on. Penny dreadful is about a 4-5ish year-old child (which maybe why the film was banned) that was in a car accident with her parents. The car is upside down and the father thrown from the car. Penny can see her father from where she is; her mother is still suspended upside down in her seat belt telling her "Its okay, everything is going to be okay". However, while the mother consoles her daughter everyone notices that her throat is slashed horribly and pouring blood out of her. This whole incident gives Penny a huge fear of cars. Which is what the film is about. The next scene is her in a car with her therapist. They are going to drive out to the place it happened so she can confront her fear; with periodic stops so Penny can calm herself. Anyway, the hit a hitchhiker and to make up for it the offer him a ride. They drop him off at some camp ground and upon leaving they discover that he punctured their tires. The tire blows and the therapist runs off to find a signal for her phone, leaving Penny (who has and is in complete hysterics) to stay in the car. Well, she gets out and tries to go find her therapist and runs into the hitchhiker, gets scared, trips and knocks herself out. She awakes in the car with a camcorder in her lap and her therapist in the drivers seat. She watches the film and it is a film of her therapist being killed. Then she notices where she is and where the car is. The car is wedged in between four trees, two on either side, preventing any escape from the car. Well, of course you can imagine she is freaking out on a richer scale of 5487. And this is where the film really begins.

I loved this film. By the way while the hitchhiker was in the car, it to hard to hide Penny's condition to for so ice-breakers her phobia is brought up in conversation, giving the hitchhiker the ammo to torture this poor babe's little fragile mind. Now, the film is very cliche-ic. But it is a cliche that ignores its cliche-iness and goes on with the film. This is like an awesome camp fire story. We are basically in the car with Penny the whole time, feeling her fear rising. feeling her give up to it every now and then. Penny is played by an young girl no more than 14-15. Unbelievable acting. Some of the lines are a little corny but fit the situation. A teenage girl, in said situation, tends to say certain things (slight drama queen), but at the same time we have to understand the fear inside her. This is the one spot in all of the world she doesn't want to be and it is the safest place for her. Anyway, the hitchhiker tortures the hell out of her, which (also maybe a reason for the ban) forces her psyche to take her relaxing meds...lots of them. So, by the end of the film is running on fear, adrenaline, and extreme over medication. The actress does an amazing job.

I didn't give it a awesome score due to the hitchhiker. Their is a moment at the end where we finally see the hitchhiker's face. Most of the hitchhiker's role was silent; the embodiment of the one causing this intense fear. And when we see him...well, disappointment is really the only word I have. He is suppose to be an escape mental patient, but in truth he is very real. The man was sort of nasty. He had oily and matted raven hair, pale skin with cracks in it, and gnarly teeth. Sort of a death-metal pretty. Which may be scary to a teenage girl with a fear of cars and doped up on relaxers. I think they could of done a little better...his voice was to high, needed more gruff.

Horror Film Festival night 1 of 3

So for some little joy in my life I decided to spurge for the film festival. 3 nights of films the public wont see 'cept for the limited time of this festival. And also, it is possible that the turn out of this will inspire more such films to be released if the turn out is big so I felt it right to promote such an endeavor.

I'll be giving away a little of the plot of these films but since you can't see them anymore in theaters I don't feel to bad :)

Film 1 day 1

REINCARNATION (RINNE) --- ratings: 2 raptors
I think this film would not have made it to theaters here because it is slightly disturbing but mostly because it is foreign. Since most Japanese horror films get made into re-makes; i.e. The Ring (Ringu), and The Grudge (Ju-On). This film fits along the lines of these Japanese versions. Just as good as Ringu and Ju-On but different. It has a more accidental theme to it.

The film is about a man who kills 11 people in a hotel (only 11 people were in it at the time). About 5 staff, his family, and a few other couples that happen to be there in 1970. 35 years later, a well-known director wants to make a film about those murders and he has an obsessive passion to make it as close to exact as he can. Meanwhile the woman hired to play the daughter of the killer is getting memory flashes of this past scenario. In addition, the film jumps around in the beginning of few people who also get flashes of memories or glimpses of dead souls and they have nothing to do with the soon to be made film. So as the title suggests, these people are the Reincarnations of the ones murder 35 years ago. as the film to be made nears completion the visions intensify to the point of taking people out of the real word and back to that point in history to witness the occurrence. Now, by my reasoning there is a specific entity that is forcing these visions.

And here is one big spoiler to the plot but not the twist: The killer was not insane per say, he was conducting an experiment on Reincarnation. He wanted to see if they would all meet up again in the next life. Well, the kicker is he didn't count on a vengeful spirit to bring them all back to the situation (where otherwise they all wouldn't have been reunited).

A pretty good film. Pulls you in; however, the character (as is often in Japanese horror films) doesn't come to the conclusion nearly as quick as you can.

Film 2 day 1 :edit: moved to bottom (personally my favorite of the day, want to save for last)

Film 3 day 1

DARK RIDE --- ratings: Ex-raptor feeding grounds
The Reason this film didn't make it to theaters IMO, is due to the death of 2 14ish year-old girls in the beginning of the film. By recollection, most children who die in films usually get whisked away and hear screams of some sort of in the distance, away from camera; or there is a montage shot of screams, the knife, the face of victim throwing their head back and forth and for some reason a light is swinging about of there is a strobe light on. Away, this film doesn't do that (same possible reason for Reincarnation, you witness the killings because the killer filmed it while he did it)

There a small fair ride called Dark Ride. Common in small town fairs. Basically, a horror version of the tunnel of love. Not really scary except to kids. Well, in 1989 two twins died on one of these rides. After investigation, turn out a total of 14 people died on this particular ride. There owner of the ride a 2 children, the older of the 2 was demented. He would snatch people out of the ride and re-enact the scenes within the ride. Like if you were riding past the demented doctor scene he would eviscerate you. Well, the killer was also retarded. He had the mentality of a 5 year-old. He thought he was playing. Anyway, the shut the place down and put the killer into a metal asylum. About 16 years later they re-opened the ride. 3 days before re-opening, so college kids decide to save money and they want to spend the night in the ride. And of course, this is the same time the killer escapes,...like the exact same time, so word of the escape isn't out yet.

Anyway, aside from the ban of such a film due to content, this film sucked ass. It was a cheesy horror flick; college kids, weed, road trip, flier that a Dark Ride amusement ride is opening up. Bad shots, bad DP, bad direction. Which is really the suck part. The acting was good with what they had. As were the special effects; example, the killer sneaks up behind a rent-a-cop and slices his head "in a perfect line" in two. Well, they did some crappy film work after that which pulled away from the coolness of the scene, but is the factual detail that they did the effect which gave me awe struck to the horror effect guys. Now, hopefully you have seen, somewhere in the films in your life, a brain in a jar. Just floating there, in perfect preservation. If you have ever touched such a brain, you would know the texture of such. Well, there is one problem. In films you see such brains and there lying around or something, but they look just like that brain in a jar, you can basically tell they are brains. Well, brains don't look like that without the proper treating of chemicals. Brains are actually very liquid. If you were to actually grab someones brains right out of there head, it would ooze right through your fingers, much like jello that hasn't been in the fridge long enough. Anyway, when the head split open the brains leaked out...I was impressed. But that one special effect didn't save the film.

:edit: relocated Film 2 day 1

UNREST --- ratings: Raptor nest
By far by favorite.
The ban on this film is just. The reason this film is banned from public is this; the film is about med-students in Gross Anatomy class. This is the class where they dissect a cadaver. The cadavers in this film...are real. Yes, real dead bodies on film. Now, I'm not saying that the bodies look real; no, these are real dead bodies for med-students to dissect. This is why the film can not be shown. But man was it super cool.

Med-students work together in this lab but are divided up into groups of 4. The film focuses on one batch of 4. Well, it focuses on one cadaver really. Something about this cadaver is spooking one of the med-students. Something about the soul not put to rest. This film I don't want to ruin with all the detail just because it is so good. I could literally talk pages about this film. Here is a little bit though. The woman was possessed before she died by an Aztec God-ish. Anyway, people who touch this body are dieing. And one way they die is by drowning. In the cadaver lab there is a tank. A tank of formaldehyde of which there are cadavers floating inside to keep fresh of this lab. Now the through-out the course of the film the woman's body is placed back into the tank. And the students figure out that they need to put the body to rest...so...they actually get inside this tank with the real cadavers...OMG. This is all real. This is a real lab with real cadavers. It is freaking insane it was so good. not the highest rank due to the resolution after the ending...is was kinda weak.

In case your wondering about my rating system, I have revised it.
here it is from worst to fantabulous:
65 million years later - will never die by raptors
Ex-raptor feeding grounds - small chance of raptor death (much like being hit by lightning)
Raptor feeding grounds - decent chance of death but possible survival
1 raptor - will die but not after lots of torturous waiting as it stalks you
2 raptors - will die after they start eating you
3 raptors - will die before you even see the other 2
Raptor nest - will die with a vengeance
Raptor hunting party - signing you soul away could not protect you

Friday, November 10, 2006

Things have gone from bad to mexican

Well, no job yet. Time to find anything instead of something in semi-particular. The car I was using has no been taken away from me due to a winter scare. The car that was promised to me is not being delivered upon due to leverage and back-stabbing. I can't make bills and rent for next month. And I have been forced to a diet of oatmeal in the mornin' and a one cup-o-noodle at night. And now, LOST won't show new episodes til February, I mean come on.

To be honest, it isn't all that bad. At least the car thing. I will have access to a car Mon-Fri from about 8am-5pm. And one job will turn this all around. I get the job, I can get a loan to buy back my car with a little pocket money for the next few months til the pay checks start coming in. And the diet is actually very reminiscent of my diet in Korea, which I kinda enjoyed really.

But LOST man, ...curse you JJ Abbrams, curse you and all your kind.

No worries really. I'll find a job before the month is out. The suck part is that all my weekend plans for the rest of the month are completely shot.

Friday, November 03, 2006

8 films 2 die 4

Horrorfest.

Each year, movies are made and released that are to intense for the general public to see. After Dark films has arranged to show the public 8 of these films over one weekend. November 17th-19th, 500 theaters in 35 cities, will show these films. And fortunatly for me Oak View 24 is one of those theaters.

for more info here is the web address http://www.horrorfestonline.com/

I will be planning to see all 8. People are welcome to join me.

Okay, now to info on the D L

This Weekend - Adam is home, and World Gaming something or another

Next Weekend - Starwars Marathon on Cinemax - all 6 films in order

Weekend After - Horrorfest

Thanksgiving Weekend - um...Thanksgiving

Well, my weekends are full at least. I'm on the mend (so to speak); can't seem to shake it but no where near as bad as it was. Couple job interviews...promising but not gonna hold my breath. And that's about it. I will be moving but not til the year is out. I didn't like the pressure of it all so I put it on the back burner. #1 priority is to get paid this month.

Speaking of pay, check this out. I can't get my money out of Korea. The Korean bank wants me to go in personally and do any transaction face to face. So, I need to give someone in Korea power of attorney over my bank account so they can't close it out and mail my money home. Ideally, I would ask my partner teacher, but I have emailed her a few times and no response. If she dosen't respond to my emails I might have a back up but if that falls through then my money is stuck in Korea. I have no idea how much it is but it is at least 500-700 bucks.

And my car situation. I feel the pressure from Miss Rebecca, which makes me put pressure on JoeJoe (since he promised me a car). Oh well. After all that though, I'm just really bored. I wanna work. Sure it gives me time to do, well, stuff here, but I wanna work dammit.

Sunday, October 29, 2006

Woohoo... ... ... party... ... ... I feel like crap

So, partys are just about over. There is actually one this evening for D's birthday but I guess I pushed myself a little to hard and my illness has worsend. I think it is possible that I have a mild case of streep throat. I have been very good also. I didn't drink at my own party, not one drop, and I even stayed away from the smoking most of the night and I feel even worse today. But I think my sinus infection is starting to go away and the throat thing is picking up a little. Anyway, party central right?

The first party at Joe's was pretty cool. Not a big turn out, but those that did show up were pretty cool (cept for one or two). Why is it that at every party there is always one or two people that just sit there, don't mingle, don't smile, drink like one drink, then leave. Why even come. Anyway, regardless of the weird friends that others have, the party was pretty good. The few young'ns in school girl outfits weren't all that and I could have done without the drama in the mornin but whatever.

On to my party. Went off without a hitch...til D had to cancel for a place to party. Somewhat of a mad rush to clean up and get the place decorated but I think it turned out alright. And plenty of people showed (which I was a little worried about). Then after the inital party kinda started to die down, twenty people showed up who none of us really knew. Turned out to be Heather's friends. Not a bad batch either. Then some real old friends showed and it rekicked a third wave of adreniline into the party. The party didn't end til about 5:30am pre-day-light savings time (so really 4:30am). Anyway, I think the forced to stay up and awake and interact with all manners of guests made me a little worse in the health department.

To continue. I got a car in the works, a few promising prospects for a few decent jobs with little responsiblity and great pay, ... ... ...and I have decided to move out. A while back, my roommates exspressed that while I was in Korea they really enjoyed the just being a couple thing without a roommate. I get that. And now one of them got a promotion and can afford this place easier without me. So, I got a place lined up but now my roommates say that I don't need to move out. They like it okay now. Well, to late. I'm moving but it will take a few months. I really want to take my time with this one. All the moving and flying has got me worn out so I don't want to be pressured into this (which I kinda was, but not really).

Anyway, I'm on the mend; as is the life. Slowly, and thank god for that.

Sunday, October 15, 2006

My feet hurt...

Oh My Frelling God!!!!!

way to much to say...edit later...

So I saw fisherman's wharf, alkatraz, china town, japan town, castro, and panda express. And yes, I saw the seals or sea lions. Big whoop. I did enjoy Fisherman's Wharf and Alkatraz. I love the water and fisherman's wharf wasn't to crowded. Alkatraz was way cool. I was on the early bird ship out and doing so got to see more of the island than most. Ya see, that early, everyone is egar to see the jail, but for me the jail was the last thing I saw. I wondered the island in complete peace. Even, accidently, wonder to places I wasn't suppose to be (because the island crew knows that people who come that early go to the jail first...but not me ;))

Well, yesterday I saw China town, Japan town, and Castro. Although it doesn't sound like much it is when you spend a least 3-4 hours in each trying to find one or 2 things specifically. China town sucked in my opinion. Felt like Korea, only I was more familiar with it this time around it seemed. Japan town totally rocked. This is because just coming from China town the crowd in Japan town felt like a post-apoclypic era with the small amount of people running around. We also decided to hit Castro to try to find the rest of stuff on our small list...nothing. Castro is cool but after china and japan town it is just another part of the city.

Today we are going to the beach, down Haight st., Buena Vista Park, up Van Ness, and back down Geary to Safeway then home. This time we are looking for only 2 shops and to see the menu prices of a few restaurants.

Then Monday, she goes back to work. I go back to Japan town, and try to see the Japanese Tea Garden in Golden Gate Park.

Sure there is lots of detail happenings and not just the places I went to but like my title implies, the biggest thing that I am doing here is walking. Oh well, as they say here, That's San Fransico...that's lame

Monday, October 09, 2006

And he's off...

Headed to Cali today.
Not much to say.
Thought I'd drop a line and let everybody know,
That I'm okay and the parties are still a go.
Didn't plan on rhymeing this out,
Guess that is what bloggin' is about.
I'll be back on the 17th and hope to see some of you on the 20th,
if not then show up on th 28th, or die...eth...

Yeah, okay that didn't work out to well. Well, at least till the end 2 lines. Anyway, I'll be back in time to host both parties (even though neither are truly mine anymore).

The only thing I'm worried about is making my flight in time. Sort of a time crunch with my ride. I'm not fully packed but no worries...only one bag this time. I have everything I need just need to put it in a bag. I also need to run to the bank. But after that I'll be on a plane to Cali. My first time, really. Hope everything goes according to plan.

Things to see in Cali:
Ocean
Alkatraz
China Town
Maybe Golden Gate
...
...
Walking around and enjoying the atmosphere.

Anything else? I'll be in the San Francsico area.

Actually I might not be able to get internet for a week or so, but go ahead and send a suggestions.

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

Lata Dudes

So I've been home for almost an entire month, not really knowing what I'm going to do. So I'm going to California for a week to visit a friend who just moved out there. I leave the 9th and return on the 17th, just in time for a halloween party on the 20th and mine and Becky's halloween party on the 28th. Of course, all are invited to each one. The one on the 20th, as said before, has a religous theme. Anything having to do with any religon. The second is just a garden variety halloween party.

Things are pretty calm here at the moment. Probably cause I took a break from anything after the long week of getting things done. I'll start again today. A few things to finish up then packing for Cali.

I've never been to California; never been to anywhere on the west half of the US (except Grand Canyon...when I was like 5). I'm flying out, makes me think I should get so Frequent Flier Miles with all this travel lately. I like this though. I'm a traveler at heart. I like never being in one place for to long. I also like seeing new places (especially where English is spoken, lately :)). But it still comes down to what am I going to do. Options: finfish a few online courses to be certifited and work free lance; Graduate school and firther my idea; get any job and work off my debt. These appaer to be my main catagory of choices now.

What is really cool is that I'm not worried in the slightest. Hell, I may even find something in Cali, who knows right. It's kinda like waiting in line for the wind to whisk you to where you are suppose to be, and I can see that my turn is coming up soon...real soon. Anyway, there are lots of pictures for Korea I haven't sent mainly cause there are a lot. But I'll take some in Cali too.

Thatas what's up with me anyway.

Thursday, September 28, 2006

Big dent

Well, I made a huge dent today, in the rearragning of things and getting the place ready. The biggest hurdle was my room. I had to get rid of a few things but the laundry held me back. But now the furniture is moved around and now all I have left (in theory) is all the boxes to unpack. I'm about a third done and it is only 1:30pm. The rest of the place is really just straighting up and becky's junk. The past few days have been really slow and I would only get a few batches of laundry done. Hopefully today and tomorrow will be the same in productivity and I'll be done by Saturday morning. I'll get back to work after this but I'll probably catch a movie for all my hard work about mid-day. Also from about 7-9pm, I have shows. But much progress has been made already. And more will be done today. Who knows, I might even be able to sleep in room tonight.

One more note, the is offical being thrown in honor of Megan's, Emily's, and My return home; as well as, Becky's promotion. A lot of you may not know Emily (M) but I do, she is a cool cat and is comeing back home for a few days and she just so happens to come in town on the 30th so I figured why not.

And no changes to the rest of the parties. If you didn't get an invitation to the parties that is because you are not in town. I have no idea when some people will be in town but of course you are welcome to any of them. Two at my place and one and Joe's. Any further questions can be addressed through email.

Friday, September 22, 2006

ECHO...echo...

Well, I've been trying to clean house and get settled in. I bought a few peices of furniture and am having difficultly in getting rid of the others that they are to replace. Anyway, lots to still. I have been home for about 2 weeks and frankly, I'm bored. It is taking me forever to get stuff situated. I'm still not unpacked yet. I need like a whole day to get things well underway, but as usual with being home and having cable...I get distracted. Admittly, I did rent Lego Star Wars II and had fun playing it. But, I stink, I have no clean clothes, and I just feel crudy.

Now, I'm not in a bad way. I just am lazy. I need a fire under my butt, or just to make some progress somewhere. I have a problem with doing one job until it is finished, if I can't finish it I can't start something else. I have a need to finish one thing first before starting another. Which may be why I got addicted to WoW. It forced me to start missions then come back to them after others were finished. It bugged me but I couldn't stop the game until I finished this one quest. Anyway, I been shredding a lot but I had to stop about an hour in cause the shredder over-heated. And now I'm on the net for like hours, waiting for the shredder to cool down. If I had help this would go faster and be finished in a day but I'm alone here (in theory). Jason works early and comes home late-ish then plays or does chores til becky comes home then goes to bed. Becky sleeps in and then does her thing outside of the house then is really tired when she gets home. I'm not blaming them, that is just how it is. I'm here all day and still very little gets done. No worries though. Eventually I get really frustrated then I just do a massive spring cleaning thing. I like doing that really, cause then I feel great about sitting and being lazy afterwards. Like I deserved it. But afterwards I like to go out to like a movie or something. Anyway, I'm just reflecting a little on how lnoely I was in Korea to now and though I have better access to everyone I still feel cut off, which, of course, is my fault but again is attributed my lazyiness and frequent distraction.

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

Lazy Days

Well, I've been home for nearly a week (shy by 10 hours). And the only progress I have made is a list of 'to do'. Course I did watch like fifdy movies and caught up on my Deadwood. I'm behind on Stargate and Atlantis. I'm not sure what else was on while I was gone but I am looking forward to Battlestar.

Anyway, of course parties are a topic of conversation. But as usual Becky forgets to invite people til last minute. Also, there is sure to be a party in order for Megan's arrival back. And one more added note, Joe is having a Halloween party about week before Halloween with a clergy theme; coma as your favorite religon sort of thing. Also, Becky has plans (more of an idea) for a Halloween party. Parties being thrown for me are somewhat confusing at the moment. Kat wants to thrown one, as does Becky.

As for an update, Its hard to accomplish much without vehical. I have a car during my mother's work hours, which is fine, but I tend to be active at night so that doesn't work perfectly (course what would work perfectly other than my own car). I was suppose to be able to borrow a car for a while but appaerently there was some mis-communitcation and now I am expected to pay for a car I intended to borrow til I got established. So I have to resort to the deal I am currently under. It isn't so bad.

Oh, ever since Korea, I didn't have a single back problem. When I got back and slept on the couch, I realized that it was a large attruibutor to my back problems so now I have to get the couch out of my room and get a bed. And while at it, a few other things to fix and clean up a few things here. So shopping is in order.

Monday, September 04, 2006

When in Rome, get the hell out of Dodge

Well, let's see. I was suppose to do something today...hmmm. Oh yeah, I'm coming home.
That's right, today's the last day of work and the last in Korea.

All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye

But the dawn is breakin', it's early morn
The taxi's waitin', he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go'

Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

Not really, I can't wait to be home finally. Have a burger, and some tacos, a proper ice cream (one that doesn't melt in the freezer).
So letme give you an update as what has happened so far. Well, I did get off my ass and do the whole tourist thing both Sat. and Sun. Saturday, what did I do? Hmmm, oh yeah, just climbed ass to the top of a freakin' mountain. Yeah, you heard me. A Freakin' Mountain in Korea. Just call me 'T the Mighty, Conquerer of foreign earth'. Oh, and stick my own foot in my mouth right about now, at the top...was a vendor selling food and water...okay, so it isn't like some K-2 or something. It's a mountain that most people climb a for really good exerise, but that doesn't make it any less of a mountain. The climb was just a path at first, then a rock road, then those peices of wood inbedded into the earth to look like steps (lots of those, and a really steep angle). After that, there was a really good rest spot with a vendor, ...but beyond that was the real climb, all the way to the summit. Nothing, but smooth and very large boulders. Now some of you may say 'so what, just a couple of big rocks' ever trying climbing a smooth surfaced boulder that is larger than you? I said "Fuck It", it was the last time I would ever have this chance as far as I know, so I'm climbing that fucker. And I did, in sandels, shorts, sleeveless shirt, sunglasses, and travel bag, completely decked out in tourist fashion surrounded by elite rock climbers in mountianeering gear. And at the summit, was another vendor. When I got the top I found out there was like 8 different trails leading here, all of varying degree of difficultly. I didn't feel stupid though. I don't know this part of Korea, I have no map for this mountain, at times I didn't even know if I was on a trail cause I hadn't seen or heard anyone in a while. It was as close to a life threating adventure as I was probably going to get in the city. It also turns out, that I was really close to the DMZ when I was up top there. There is this line is electric towers that borders the DMZ, that can be seen from the top of this mountain. Oh, but to make myself feel a little to big for my briches. WhenIgot back down the path, at the beginning, there were like five people who passed me carrying their bikes up the mountain. I felt like a newbie, but a newbie that did it all by himself :).

Then I went to see My Super Ex-Girlfriend (Monster House was sold out), it was funnier than I expected. Then I saw Monster House the following day. I loved it. Anyway, see you all when I get home.